Proof it’s not all in my head…

It’s in my feet. Pain and swelling have landed in my feet and looks like it’s going to stay there for a while. I haven’t had pain on the soles of my feet before so this is new to me. It feels like I’ve walked a hundred miles. Why on earth would my feet hurt when I stay off them most of the day? And even on days when I am on my feet they still do not hurt as bad as they do now. It’s times like this I wish I were back on the vicodin just to have some relief during the day. When’s my next doctor’s appointment…


Cranky with a bit of sour

Don’t know what it is that makes me cranky lately but even I don’t want to be around myself. I’d like to blame it on the pain but I really don’t think that’s it. I don’t like to be around cranky people and I especially don’t like it in myself. What to do? Think happy thoughts? How many times can a person imagine strangling Elmo? I have to move on and find a different way to deal with being cranky.

So far I’ve come up with…

-thinking of a warm sunny place.

-listening to soothing music.

-reading verses from the Bible.

-playing with the dog.

-finding a new annoying children’s toy to strangle.

-or just waiting it out…this too shall pass.


Happenings

As you can see, it’s been a while since I last posted. I won’t post all the reasons I’ve been absent but I’ve had some new difficulties pop up. My knees have gotten so bad now that the injections have been put on hold and I’m scheduled to see a surgeon about my right knee. My left knee is the one that had been x-rayed but the right one is the one that has been giving me so much trouble lately.

I hope that I’m able to have surgery on both knees. I need to lose a little more weight before the surgery, not an easy thing to do. The girls have had to take over all the cooking and most of the cleaning. Most days I have to rely on crutches to get around the house and I dare not even attempt to walk further than 30 feet on my own. I have to use a wheelchair when going out and I have to avoid the stairs completely (except for the steps on the deck).

I hope all of this can be resolved before November, which is the start of baking season. I will be so glad to have some pain relief, if all goes well.

Crocheting, taking care of the finances, and roaming around on the internet keep me busy. I wish I were more active but for now I’ll have to find areas where I can contribute something. It’s important to me to not give up. I’m sure I will see some improvement in the months ahead.


More tales of our spoiled dog

Mr. D continues to do things only he can get away with, things Cesar Milan would not approve of, I’m sure.

He seems to think my spot on the couch, with all it’s pillows, is the place to be.

He likes to stare at me waiting for a treat and when I ignore him, he jumps up on me.

He woke me up by landing his front paws on my lap. He must weigh at least 75 pounds.

He likes to take the kid’s coats and drag them wherever he likes.

He comes over to the basket of yarn I have on the floor, eying the one he’ll trot off with next.

He now has a new toy, a stuffed toy duck with it’s annoying built-in duck call.

Has adopted the neighbors as a second family. He loves them! If they’re outside he makes a bee-line for them and he doesn’t care that they don’t give him treats. I wish he felt the same about us when we don’t give him treats.


Meat, from where?

And now for the news of the strange and bizarre…

A guy came up to our house and wanted to sell us some meat from the back of his van. Seriously? You think we would want that? Even if it wasn’t road-kill, ummm, I don’t think so!


Out with the quilt, in with the yarn

I haven’t totally abandoned quilting, it’s just that, for the moment, crocheting has taken up my time, hobby-wise. A friend of mine offered to finish a quilt for me that I had started many, many moons ago so I took her up on her offer.

Crocheting for me is easier as I can have all the equipment right near me without having to get up too much or exhaust myself with fabric preparation, pressing and cutting. It’s much easier for this fibromite to crochet a project within a short amount of time than it was with quilting. I wish it weren’t that way because quilting is the first craft that I felt I was any good at.

Maybe at a later time I will pick it back up again, after all, there are still a few quilts that I haven’t finished.


How to make someone’s day

Just send them a craft book they’ve been wanting for quite some time.

No, I’m not hinting.

Although…..


Three years and still going

I made the decision to get off a prescription pain med. I was told by a friend that I was taking too much. He told me that there were better ways of dealing with pain. I didn’t like hearing that since the pain I was experiencing was chronic. I really felt I needed to be on the meds or I wouldn’t get through the day. They made me sleepy, irritable, anxious, weepy and depressed but I was convinced I needed them.

I’m so thankful that friends helped me through those first days and weeks. I remember thinking, “I’ll never be able to make it 24 hours without a pain pill.” I was able to get through 24 hours without a pill but then I would need one but at least I was taking only one every 24 hours. Then I got past the 24 hour mark and got to 28 hours. I thought this was great! I’m onto something. But let’s just see if I can make it even farther. I went to 32, then to 48 hours! That was a milestone for me. It had been years since I had gone 24 hours without taking anything.

I knew I was onto something-that I would be able to make it to a week if I just summoned the strength. Strength came in the form of two friends who made themselves available whenever I needed them for moral support. I knew I had to make it to the 2 week mark because that was the longest I had ever been without a pain pill in the 4 1/2 years I had been on it.

Once I made it past the 2 week mark, I knew I was going to make it. I gave the remaining pills to my doctor. He was very supportive of my decision to get off the pain meds. I was thrilled when I made it to a year and then 2 years.

Unfortunately, I’ve had to go back on them because of an injury. But at least this time, I’m in control and I do not have a habit of taking this pain med. So, even though I’m back on it, I still feel successful because I have conquered the feeling that I need to have this strong of a pain med to make it through the day. I am on less strong medications for pain but even those are used sparingly.

Good friends, faith and support can make all the difference.


Catching up on things

It’s been quite a while since I’ve posted anything. This is mostly due to depression. Some of it’s due to other events going on in my life and of course dealing with the fibro.

Since it’s difficult to remember everything that’s been going on, I’ll just hit the highlights.

_Daughter decided to go back to college to earn a degree.

_Got a wheelchair real cheap…less than $51.

_Saw my regular Rhuematologist who assured me that my knees will be taken care of (meaning surgery), he doesn’t think I’m too young to have the knee replaced.

_Went shopping with friends and then had lunch each week for a couple of weeks. Now one has gone back home and won’t be back till Spring.

_Discovered some things that have been annoying me lately.

_Decided to stop dieting for good. But I have decided to take better care of my health by eating healthier. I just have to figure out what’s best for my body.

Those are some of the highlights as I can remember them.

 

 

 


Colds

I caught a cold from my lovely daughter. It’s going to hang around for a while just to make me miserable. I lost my voice thanks to the cough and whatever else causes laryngitis. I’ve gone through countless boxes of tissues, cold medicines (they don’t work), movies and whatnot, all to no avail. I’m still sick and this cold is still hanging on. Ugh! Go away already!


Feeling blah

Maybe it’s the heat or the humidity but I just can’t seem to get with it lately. I should be enjoying some parts of summer at least but I just can’t even find enough gumption to get my chores done. Hopefully, this too, is a phase….


A message for my much older sister…

I’m sorry.

I’m sorry I missed out on years of who knows what.

I’m sorry I’m your most difficult sister.

I’m glad I had a chance to see you again after many years…

I’m glad you seem to be doing well.

I’m glad you still have your beautiful long hair.

I’m glad I had a chance to give you a hug.

I’m glad we share a new found common interest.

I’m glad we had a chance to swap stories.

I’m glad we spent some time together.

I hope we will continue to share things.

I hope I get to see you again soon.

I’m happy I have this sister that I miss and love very much.

See you later, sis.


When one’s down they all follow

At least in our house.

One family member brought home a flu-type bug and passed it on to another. In the meantime one family member decided to develop an inflammation, and me, I’m the usual sick self.

When one of us goes down, we all go down.

The healthiest of the bunch gets to wait on the others hand and foot.

I can’t wait till they get better.

Get well family. :)


If possible, I’d live in a freezer

If we owned a walk-in freezer, I’d spend most of my time in there.

I’ve got a fan going just about 24/7 and I still sweat. I don’t know why, is it the meds or just the wonderful symptoms of Fibromyalgia?

I always feel hot. I can take a cool shower and dry off and sit in front of a fan and still sweat just minutes later. I’ve taken to putting a cold wet wash cloth on the back of my neck.

Cool weather is about 2 months away. Can’t wait.


We shall see

Well, I got some shots to my knee. We’ll see how that goes. So far I’ve noticed a slight improvement.

When I go to my Rheumatologist, we’ll see what he has to say. I’m hoping he will at least consider surgery in the near future. I like this doctor and don’t want to be at odds with him on anything.

I’d also like it if he were supportive of my using crutches and a wheelchair for getting around in stores and other places that require a lot of walking and/or standing.


Mornings and coffee

It occurred to me that my mornings go smoother if I have coffee and chocolate.

The family is happier too.


Happenings

The blog is back. It went offline for a time.

I am very frustrated and angered by the latest decision by a doctor (not my regular doctor) in regards to my knee. Depression and self-pity reared their ugly heads too.

My cartilage in my knee is gone. It’s very badly damaged-bone on bone, as they say. They only took x-rays of one knee, so if one is bad, the other must be also. I’ve been getting injections to hold off surgery. The one knee feels better but now the hips have taken over the job of making me miserable. Thank you, hips.

I also have bone spurs on the knee. I’m going to do some exercise to strengthen the knee. In the meantime….what to do?

I have my regular appointment coming up with my Rheumatologist. I wonder what he will advise me to do. I should have kept that appointment I canceled, maybe then they would have taken x-rays and discovered the problem and I wouldn’t be waiting around wondering what I can and cannot do.

I was told I could exercise as much as I am able to tolerate. I can’t do much more damage I suppose.


Moving ahead….and in other news

I’m moving forward, trying to do what’s best.

In other news…..

Our dog has a new habit of bringing up dirty laundry from the basement…..my unmentionables! I hope this doesn’t last long. It wouldn’t be so bad if he took it downstairs

Another centipede…..I was so traumatized this time that I couldn’t scream out what it was.


Since I can’t get any worse

I’ve decided to go ahead and exercise. I’m going to use the stationary bike and total gym. My doctor suggested yoga. If I can work that in, I’ll do that too. I figure I can’t do much more damage and they want me to lose the weight so I’m going to go ahead and see what happens.

Yesterday I did 5 minutes on the bike and a few exercises on the total gym. Today I ache all over. I’m fatigued. Crabby…etc…

I’m going to rest today and try again tomorrow. At least when I go back to the surgeon I can tell him I’m starting to exercise.


Surgery and Fibromyalgia

Earlier this week I “injured” my knee. I was getting dressed when I felt a “pop.” It hurt immediately and as I tried to move it any which way it hurt even worse. Thankfully my daughter was home at the time and was able to get my crutches because I was unable to put weight on it.

I tried the usual…rest…heating pads…meds…pain-killers…tens unit…pillows. When that didn’t work, I tried a shower, then a bath. Nothing I tried eased the pain plus I was unable to bend it or straighten it out.

I went to the doctor to get pain-killers because I thought it would go away in a few days and I could return to normal. Well, the doctor took x-rays and came back with the news that I had some type of problem with my cartilage being worn down due to the arthritis. I already knew that part. But he said I needed to see a surgeon immediately. So I have an upcoming appointment to determine what type of surgery is needed and how bad the damage is to the knee.


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